10/23/12

I'm just so excited, I'm gonna burst! There really isn't even a specific reason besides God is so good! Which is definitely reason enough to be excited. I'm looking forward to getting to know Him more and seriously I've never enjoyed life in this way more than I have the past few days. The funny thing is, these past few days I've been getting more and more homesick, I miss people and home, we're still waiting to hear about our outreach groups, and overall I've been really tired; the few days that nothing has really happened, I have had the best time in company with God and have drawn closer to Him! I've decided to keep pursuing Him even more and it has been so much fun. Yesterday during homework night with the whole class, I was sitting on the ground  working away and was distracted by an ant that kept crawling around my feet so I was intent on watching it, I was intrigued and amused... call me crazy. I was listening to my iPod, and all of a sudden the ant stopped, lifted it's front legs up in the air and literally started dancing... I'm convinced. It was definitely dancing to my music. I could hardly contain my laughter and who knows if anyone was watching me watch this ant, but I knew God was so amused too. I'm finding joy and love for everything, even the little random things that I used to overlook. I was going through the homework and eating up all of the verses and I was seriously SO tired, but got energized from the promises and truth in the bible that by the end of the night, I didn't even want to go to bed, all I wanted to do was spend more time with God. It's like I'm getting a glimpse of Heaven! It's so hard to explain what's going on with me inside, but all I can say is that it's life changing. It isn't life changing because I flew to Australia and decided to take a year off from college, it's life changing because I chose to pursue God and dedicate my time here to getting to know His voice and to fall more and more in love with Him. It's as simple as that. Already, I notice myself growing in joy, in patience, in humility, in hope, a new attitude... all of those things, but most of all in desperation. It's kind of an oxymoron, but it seems like most of what Jesus taught is that way; we have to die to ourselves in order to truly live, that to be a good leader we have to first follow, that in order to really receive we have to give everything away... so just like that- the more I get to know Him, the more desperate for Him I get. It's a beautiful thing.

Just some thoughts... but much love to you all and I'll post an update on what outreach location I'm chose and the groups when we find out!