Dear... (your name)

God is so thankful for your heart. Although decisions that you've made have affected you, it is not the end. The hardness that has built up around your heart is not permanent. Your confusions about God is understandable and He isn't mad that you have questions. He isn't mad that you've ignored Him or haven't chosen to pay attention to Him. Whether or not you believe He's there doesn't affect His goodness and His presence and most importantly: His love. There's nothing you could do to make Him forget about you like many people have in your life. He's different, He's the exception. His love for you doesn't even seem to make sense, it doesn't make sense that He loves every one of us because we mess up and we make mistakes. But don't let that condemn you and don't let guilt and shame fall on you. Let acceptance of His love and willingness to receive His love pour out instead. Ask Him questions, tell Him your confusion and your worries, cry out to Him, even if it's like a temper tantrum kicking and screaming. He wants to listen. Because He loves you, unconditionally and without hesitation. He's waiting with His arms spread wide for you to turn around and leap into them. He'll pick up your feet when you can't and will never turn away. He isn't scared of your past or intimidated by your decisions. There's nothing you could have done to make Him cringe, because He chooses to only see you as who He originally created you to be. He'll speak to you, in visions or pictures, in a crystal clear voice, or in a simple thought. I promise. Just ask Him your questions with an honest heart and with patience... soon enough you'll silence yourself enough to be able to hear Him. Explore His love. It's worth an earnest try.


Much love,
Me